2:06:28you feel apathy and feel white noise
2:06:31i had to keep it together until everything collapsed on me
2:06:32I didnt lose control of emotions. I just stopped having emotions
2:06:33yeah// its a change that never changes back. no matter how long, things are always different.
2:06:37I lost both my grandfathers like a month apart. the first one I kept it together but I just kinda lost it when I got the call for the second one.
2:06:40I'm glad you're feeling better now, though?
2:06:41Time flies too. you just go through the motions
2:06:41The first one is the hardest.
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2:06:50years? I wouldn't have held for that long
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2:07:03it really was not Daijobu phase
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2:07:09Same. I do not care anymore A gang member threatened me at a drive through and I literally rolled my eyes and drove off with my food.
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2:07:13ye...hearing your stories you've really gone through A LOT of shiet
2:07:15I definitely have not. I've lost anchors about every 2 years for the past 15 years :upside_down_face:
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2:07:27we can only hope we've grown
2:07:30we now have sad bee :_shiinaSadbee:
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